The first requirement in taking a step in the right direction is to take a step in some direction. – Robert Brault

It feels like I have been in a never ending cycle of business these last few weeks. Between photography and raising the kiddos I’m just a mess. The weather is warming up so I have started scheduling sessions, and I’m starting to prepare for homeschooling my son in the fall. We’ve opted to share a laptop for now. He will need one for school and I will need one when I do some weekend events (boudoir) so it just makes good financial sense. Neither one of us really need a laptop for the hours the other one needs one.

I’ll be happy when he’s finally out of the school system, though. I feel like since I informed them of my decision to homeschool next year that they are setting him up for failure for the rest of the school year. He has an IEP. He has known issues that limit his availability to regulate his emotions…yet when a school field trip was planned they gave me three options: I could attend the field trip (not possible). I could allow him to attend, but one on one services would not be provided. Or I could allow him to stay home from school for the day, but it would be counted as an unexcused absence.

First of all, not every parent has the capability to show up to a field trip. Even if I did, I wouldn’t want to. Even if you remove the fact that it is a field trip day for the location for the entire area I have no desire to be stuck on a bus with dozens upon dozens of other people’s children for long periods of time, nor do I want to go to the said location and spend hours upon hours there with other people’s children. Please, don’t get me wrong…I LOVE kids. But I also love my ability to walk away from them, pop a xanex, and allow my anxiety to calm down when the need arises.

Second, why on Earth would they not provide one on one services for my son. His IEP expresses that he be provided with one on one services with a special education teacher when and if he needs. It also states that he be allowed to remove himself from the situation should he become overwhelmed and/or overstimulated. Please explain to me how this is going to be provided in an outside location without express one on one services during said field trip.

Last, but not least, if we can not accomodate any of the above options why in the hell would his absence be unexcused? Screw you, buddy…but you’re not going to put my son in that position. The last time he went on a field trip it did not exactly go well. While he has made huge strides in a school environment comparatively speaking….sending him to a overly crowded museum on a field trip day is setting him up for a whole world of endless disasters. No, just no.

Thankfully….Jakobe has a mama bear for a mother and I’m not going to take it lying down. After discussing the options presented to me by the school his psychiatrist was having absolutely no part of it. She wrote him a medical release for the entire day. I wish I could take the paper to the school myself and tell them to stick it where the sun doesn’t shine. I have to keep reminding myself that he has only a few weeks left of actual school days left. We can make it through this, but it certainly isn’t coming fast enough.

We are going to spend the time this summer “deschooling” before I start his curriculum for homeschool. I think it is going to be important for him to get into a different style of a routine and structure than he is used to with traditional schooling, though I am not entirely sure how this is going to work with his sister still attending the same school we are pulling him out of. And that is how different my children are. While both have their own specific special needs….Jakobe is in no way Mr. Popularity while little Miss. Esmae is known by most of the school. Its interesting.

Anyway, in terms of things over at Three One Seven Photography, I’m hoping this year really takes off for me. I’ve gotten everything I needed to do done before spring hit, kudos to me. I’ve gotten used to and acquainted with my new camera, gotten all of the other equipment I wanted and/or needed hooked up and ready to go, and even got the laptop set up for my first event.

I’m really excited about my first real “event” this year. It’s going to be a huge boudoir event. I’ve reserved a primo hotel spot and I’m so excited. If this goes well I’m likely to do Boudoir once or twice a year with my next one being around Christmas.